Save mee from e dArk......

Was thinking of blogging in earlier just now, but I've been busy dealing with the teaching notes. I simply can't solve the problem. I GIVE UP!
I lost my temper in school today. Was very frustrated the whole day. I've booked a computer server/workstations to work with after my lectures, but who knows, this guy came by and snatch my computer. He asked me to use another computer system. Sadly, I obliged. BUT! That computer system kept giving me problems. Arghs. I can't even log into my windows. This is my precious work. I have been dealing this project for the past few weeks. This is like my unborn baby, and that guy, whom insisted I use another computer, seems to be poisoning my baby. My baby isn't surviving well. I am praying everything will turn alright.
Until now, I still cannot find the solution for the beans. I am too tired to think of any. Nahz..
Still feeling low, upset...and sick....

[Edited @ 8.06PM]
Running a fever + a cramp since morning. | Feeling very sick of everything.
Had a disastrous day in school. I threw my temper once again. I was teary for the whole day. I felt like crying 3 times in school. I hate myself for it. Why am I so weak? Why am i so easily beaten by people? I forbid my tears to roll in front of anyone. . . .
I hate him.. He promised to help me and yet? I din know such ways of helping. I am utterly disappointed...in myself. I shouldn't have believe him so easily. To think, he was one of the people whom i greatly respected. I am losing trust in him, in myself, and of cuz..everyone.
I know, I am not a bright student. To be exact, I am stupid. I knew it.