Visit me @ http://jestine.multiply.com/ -0.0-

haha

Yes...

I'm gonna run.. gonna avoid..gonna hide ...

from anything that requires responsibilties.

愛睡の小豬

近來﹐身體的狀況都不是很好﹐常頭暈﹐有幾次還差點暈了過去。。

決定了﹐要開始健康生活﹗

所以星期三時﹐就跟朋友一同去游泳。結果﹐慘了。。現在的我變成了燒豬了。被太陽晒傷了。活該啊﹗好痛啊﹐ 身體到現在還是紅紅的。

生活的步伐變慢了﹐現在的我就好像想把過去9個月裡失去的睡眠全扑回來﹗那就是從早到晚我都在睡。哈哈哈。。每天10點多﹐就會起床﹐出去吃早餐。過後﹐就回家繼續睡覺。直到旁晚我才起床吃晚飯。 簡直就好像一頭豬嘛。 要肥死了耶﹗﹗

才說著要健康的活著。。但。。呵呵

不管這麼多了﹗﹗

我去surf網了。。晚安﹗

hehe..tanned

That's me! =.=v

Tired..There's work tomorrow..**actually its in another few hours time.


Sleep!!!

ChinaBlack

It was an impromptu decision to visit ChinaBlack just now. We were not even dressed up for the occasion! Psssp! Xueling was even wearing sandals!

Anyway, it was my first time there! To be exact, it was my first time clubbing too!

Music was alright, but just felt the place is a little boring. Not lively enough. I didn't drink much, only a cup of ribena vodka before we started dancing.


OK! I just know what you guys will be thinking about! Jestin?? Dance???


I merely joined in the crowd, and started dancing like a mummy. Darn!!! I must have look so funny!

But halfway through, at around 1am, I felt very sick. No, not because of the alcoholic drink. Of course I'm not drunk, neither am I on any drugs!! It was an attack of low blood pressure I supposed.

I wasn't bothered about it when I started feeling nauseous. The very next moment, I found myself seeing only completely darkness! I rushed out of the dancing area immediately and tried resting against the lift. Before I manage to even rest, the guard came chasing after me already. WoT!

Then, I struggled to take the lift down. Feeling exactly like the world has decided to collaspse on me again. My face was so white that I am looking more like a ghost. I was terrified! I was so scared that I'm going to faint or even have my life ended the very next moment. I could hear my heart thumping so hard, sounds that I've never heard before. I held tight to my mobile, praying that I'll be fine, and even if I don't, I might be able to get my mom on the phone.

I went to the 1st level and grabbed the support from the building's directory map. Rested for less than 5 mintues and another guard came. *gawd*

Darn! I can't even see anything, how am I suppose to move!!

I just threw myself on the floor outside the building, ignoring the fact that I am wearing a skirt. Rested till my friend came down to check on me.


This gave me some warnings. ~ The frequencies of such attacks are arising, and so far, this is the most serious attack. I took such long time to recover.


I will be doing a full body checkup asap! I promise!!


Sorry to make you guys worry about me. I do understand what messages have you been trying to convey to me! I thank you from my heart! By the way, I just merely went Chinablack to enjoy myself. Nothing Else.

Sorry to mommy too.. I know I'm insensible, and made you so worried..


Sharing a phrase that my friend told me while telling me that childish then.

Path Decisions
You're the only one who have the rights to choose your own paths.
No one can choose it, neither they can change or affect your choices.


Good Night! It's kind of late now.
**by the way, sorry about the bad english!**

Appreciate?

Appreciation doesn't come from the mouth. Apparently, it comes by actions.

Computer Networking 1 : Jestin 0

Apparently, I shouldnt have written that I can't bear to leave the school ...

Why? The paper I took today(21March).. killed me instantly. Most probably I flunked it. Hence, Allowing me not to leave the school. Oh Freak.
Yes. believe it or not. This is the first time (rather its the 2nd time, after the one I took during Yr2.1 ESD's term test),that when I flipped open the cover page, I got so stunned by all questions till I broke into cold "sweat".
Yep. I answered everything wrongly, even the VLSM calculation.

$#@!$#R!$%!@$#@!$#R!$% Curse the subject head!!!!
Everyone knew that this is his last semester teaching in school, but I reckon he don't have to kill us all before he leaves? Damn it.

I'm a goner..

I want some hug huggggg*sobs*

Haircut!!

Went for a haircut on saturday~ Hee.. Did some different styling.. OK, not a very big difference.. just a shorter fringe..

Just uploaded a picture of me ...(ok.. confess..I took it myself.. muahhaa) in the school lab..Last few days in this lab...

Haix.. I can't bear to leave the school~

No Pain No Gain

Yes! No pain no gain!

Currently I am feeling so much pain in my bloated stomach. Serves me right ...for gorging food again. Stressssssss...
I've just finished typing all the CN answers out. Yippie! But well.. I don't know whether am I accurate or not, and I have spent far too much time working on it. Duhx. Only 4 papers yet I took almost going to 24 hours?
Darn!

Go bathee \m/

Yes. It's me whining again..

It's da day of the month again. PMS. Was simply frustrated throughout the day. Bones aching...stomach crampz.. whadeva..


N never ending piles of work.


%$#@%$#@$%

Sung Si Kyung

Forever With You

from the album: Sung Si Kyung 3

I tried to keep me in your mind
I tried to keep me by your side with all the love I gave to you
You would always find another one, what am I to do

I tried to keep me in your life
I tried to keep me close to you even with the love I gave to you
I could always find another one, lying close to you

Baby even after all that we've been though
l can't live my life alone without your love
I can't understand girl, what am I to do but baby it's true

All the love you gave to me
All the lies you said to me at night
I love you so it didn't matter that even then after all I had, I can't leave you in my past.
I will Promise you my love will always be so true, forever with you

I tried to keep me in your heart with the pain I felt so deep within
With all the love and times I gave you, I could always find another one, lying next to you

Baby even after all that we've been though
l even tried to live my life alone without your love
I don't understand but girl, what am I to do oh, baby it's true

All the love you gave to me
All the lies you said to me at night
I love you so it didn't matter thaen even then after all I had, I can't leave you in my past.

Promise you my love will always be so true, forever with you
If you could understand the way you make me feel
Listen to your heart and see who's right here waiting by your side
I will always be the man for you and
Always be the man too love too, All for you!

Rain !!!

Ha.. Before I fall asleep....

Here's a new update..

It's finally raining cats and dogs!! Colddd... It has been long since I heard such loud 'raining sounds'.. Heavy raindrops i suppose..... The weather is really killer nowadays..

Another update. My backbone is giving me problems again. Sat too long ... there are signs that I should keep a look out.. But being too engrossed in my work.. .....i...

Anyway, I suppose the ligaments are strained again. It's swollen.. with pain.. Ouch.

Energy Depletion.....

I'm feeling as if 90% of my body's energy is depleted... Oh Freak...

It's just another week. This week is supposingly the last week of sufferings, with all the projects' submission as well as ending of classes. Though we are still being hunted by the final year examinations...

The Final Year Project's technical presentation is on Friday and yet, I still haven't produce the powerpoint slides.. Damn it! I'm too freaking tired right now. Struggling to keep eyes open. ...Will be in school earlier tomorrow to finish up the slides, as well as checking on the storyboards that I've had to produce for my group. lame.

I doubt anyone really understands what I feel. . . . except the angry me..

I am one who don't show any other emotions to people except, being happy and angry. A hot-tempered moo moo i am. I seldom cry in front of people, holding back my tears frequently. . . . .

Yes, like my lecturer, they are doing countdown for me.. countdowns towards end of misery. Misery. hah. It seems more like fear..

Everyone just bothered to be concerned with other matters.. I doubt they ever stand in my shoes and think at my point of view. Do I really deserve to be treated like this? People told me about limits that each and everyone has.. Yes, I do have mine. There is a certain limit to everything. I understand this fully. I've always considered the person's limits before handling work to the person, so as not to push over limits. But? Has anyone thought about my limits? Or maybe I am the one without one? People are always complaining about me pushing their limits, but? Am I not doing it? Did they ever realize the work load I gave them was jus little peas as compared to the ones I've?

NO. They never. Why? Cuz they could only think that I can cope with them. Yes. Till 3-5 am most probably. This explains the inconsistency of blogging. Imagine, blogging is one of my 'must-dos' daily in the past.

9 months. It has been 9 months since I took a proper rest, without having to worry for school. 9 months that I've been sleeping so little that it is causing a toil in my health. I'm always having giddy spells, lower bp, fevers as well as headaches.

No one ever bothered. .. .. ..

I can't help but to ask.. Don't I deserve some concern too?

Thats how serious I look upon responsibilities. Ha.. And I got myself into so many shitz.

天下有無不散之宴席。。。

好討厭飛機場﹐ 因為它總是給我離別的感覺﹐尤其是當我們看著親人﹐好友離開自己。。總是帶點離別的傷感。。

但是天下有無不散之宴席。。。

剛才去了一趟飛機場。 一位對我非常非常重要的朋友要到澳洲唸書了。 雖然已有好心裡準備﹐ 但還是哭了﹐心裡好不舒服﹐ 我好捨不得她噢。。。 畢竟大家也相處了一段時間了。 每當我遇到困難﹐ 又或者有什麼開心的事﹐ 總有她在我身邊。 尤其是前些日子﹐ 生活上遇到一些不開心的事﹐ 因為有她的支持﹐才能順利度過吧。 從她身上領悟到一些道理。。 一位不可缺少的好朋友。。。

和幾位朋友一起買了只熊熊給她帶出國。。。 就怕她一個人在國外會覺得寂寞。。。 了結她其實也在強忍住眼淚。。不想在大家的面前哭泣﹐讓我們擔心。。

這幾個月很快就會過的吧。。。11月時﹐ 她就會再踏上這片土地(回來度假啦)。。。

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想起了一首歌。。{-=有你在身旁=-}

路有点长夜有点微凉
心情迷迷惘惘和寂寞交换沮丧
天边星辰忽明又忽暗
哪一颗最能照亮心房
梦和理想心坚持不忘
方向就是力量和时间交替煎熬
雾里曙光绽放希望
有你一切都变得不一样
谢谢你给我温暖脆弱时候在我身旁
谢谢你陪我成长路上风风雨雨
不怕荆棘失望
有你在身旁心更坚强
阳光一路陪伴成长更勇敢
你我心中不必言语
敞开心窗
有你在身旁梦更精彩
朋友一路陪伴星光更灿烂
相信相依共同仰望
生命因你更添光亮

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朋友﹗雖然現在不再你身旁﹐但你永遠都會有我的支持﹗I'll be here always!

你在外頭要小心﹐要保重啊。。希望什麼事都會順順利利的。。。 [@^@]

/30 Q&A Bout Me\

1.   Describe your present state of mind.
Twirl + Angry cum disppointed with some freaks.


2.   Where do u usually hang-out?
In my lab... sounds bored uh huh?


3.   Ever stepped on shit on the road?
Nope, though I've encountered some dumb bird shit on my shoulder. Yucks.


4.   Last movie u saw & with whom?
Rarely got any time to sleep, let alone movie treats.


5.   Most expensive thing u bought with your own money?
MP3 player, MD player..


6.   Good looks or brains?
I have neither of them, I'm only a hardworking student.


7.   They say "you are who you hang out with" describe your friends:
I hang out with my laptop + lab's desktop frequently. (Am I looking like a computer freak?).

8.   Have you ever fallen in-love with a friend?
Even if I do, I'll never disclose it here. Carry on guessing..


9.   What would u do if u caught your guy/girl & best friend sleeping together?
Walk out. No explanation needed anymore. Explanations == Excuses.

10.  If you could be someone else for one day who would it be & why?
I will go back 17 years ago, and be me again. A 2 year old me. With no responsibilities at all.

11.  Describe your temper?
Bad.. Thou I've tried my best to control it. But lost control especially when being rushed for work.


12.  Ever punched someone?
Perhaps my pillows?


13.  What did that person say to you?
My pillows don't know how to talk...


14.  Which do u prefer? Jollibean or MCD?
McDonalds, I love French Fries!!!


15.  McDonalds or KFC?
Nowadays I will prefer KFC chickens and McDonalds' fries.

16.  Who would u choose, the one u love or the one who loves u?
I'm still the silly one. I will still choose the one I love even though he don't love me.

17.  Ever broken someone's heart?
I don't know..

18.  Ever had your heart broken?
Well, by the same person. several times.

19.  What did u do to the person who broke your heart?
Can't make myself to hate him. So, I did nothing.

20.  What's inside your bag?
Papers, Digital Camera, stationeries, wallet, keys, + books.

21.  Favorite past time?
Computers..

22.  Biggest regret in life?
A silly me, letting chances fly past every time.

23.  Worst experience you've been through?
Things that I've already went through aren't bad. Well, I still managed to walk them through. Just treat them as challenges.

24.  Best place you'd rather be?
On bed, sleeping. Looking rather like panda bear nowadays. Seriously lacking of sleep.

25.  Would u kiss on a 1st date?
Depends..

26.  Last time u cried?
Just a few hours ago. Issues making me rather angry than sad.

27.  Most embarrassing thing u did for love?
....

28.  U in love right now?
In love with myself...

29.  Is someone in-love with u?
No idea, I doubt so.

30.  Describe your present love life in a song
好想好好爱你...

A Pic 

A Qns!

什麼號碼大過熊熊的大便﹖

eeeyo

It's me...falling sick now..


Kept having on and off fever since friday. And the 1-week plus stupid throat infection. It's torturing the poor me!!!


I was still thinking of not turning up for the gathering just now... But I guessed I've drove too many planes on them...SO.. I decided to turn up...


I was still having a slight fever before I went out! Feeling a little "heavy-headed"!?! Duh. Was feeling very giddy. And the throat hurts, even with the swallowing of saliva! Darn.

The fever went down...just now.. But the dumb me.. can't resist the delicious food! Stingray! BBQ wings! as well as the sugar cane drink...


So now.. the condition of my throat worsenED.. =_+"""

.........


Feeling out of sorts....




Arghs....





Deadlines all here, and in another 9 days time, its da TERM TEST. YES! I've learnt nothing since school starts.

Freak on.

Maybe .. I am ..really the one who caused all problems....

the one who is ultimately wrong..

maybe..I shld revert to the old.....me..

Jingle Bell..Jingle Bell.. Jingle all the waY~





Last Christmas, I gave you my heart...
But the very next day, you gave it away.....
This year, to save me from tears...
I gave it to someone special!!


Merry Christmasssss 2004 peeps!~!!~!~!~!

sleep...

I've lost count... lost count of the number of days that I only have 4 hours per night to rest.


I'm tired...



I've already tried my best....




I....can't take it anymore..

I didn't mean to put myself in this pathetic shit* again....

But it somehow just attacked me, yesterday midnight.

I was rushing reports for the whole day, taking breaks for lunch and dinner only. I slept at even 4am in the morning. I'm running out of time, moreever I need to work today. I will be quitting soon. Next week. You can't expect me to quit immediately. I've to give them time to get replacements.

I think I can't handle such stress together. During SIP time, it was still alright, since I have the world time to do it slowly, and have no responsibilties of other modules. And, I still got to cover for people's work. But, well, I am not someone who can just simply throw away my responsibilities. It will never occurs that I will dump all other work just to focus on my report writing, or I will dump all my work once any problems occur. Don't worry about that. And nothing can pull me down. No matter what, life goes on. That's the ultimate reason. Life goes on. No body will stay put and wait for you. You have to catch up with people. And so, I still have way to go before I catch up with people in front.

It's rather taxing this way. My programming is still stuck, and I have to get myself focused with the report too.

Not that I didn't do any time-planning, but problems kept coming out. I can't control that, peeps. Everyone only seems to pity that someone. And think I'm the big baddie in this case.

Anyone felt what I am thinking?

Nah, it's just my own problem, and shouldn't drag anyone into the picture.



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i ignored the warning signs that my lower back gave me yesterday. I contirnued sitting there, writing reports whole day. This is what I got in return. I've got my lower spine area swollen again. The pain caused me to stay awake for quite long in the night. . . Serves me right.

Resignation Letter

I'M RESIGNING, I'M HEREBY OFFICIALLY TENDERING MY RESIGNATION AS A TEENAGER!

I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an eight-year-old again!

I want to go down to McDonalds and think it’s a five-star restaurant.

I want to think that M & M's are better than money because you can eat them.

I want to eat a whole packet of Chips without feeling guilty afterwards.

I want to return to when all you knew were colors, multiplication, tables and nursery rhymes.

I want to return to when you didn't know and you didn't care.

I want to remember ....
- The whole morning was filled of what your Mom had packed for lunch and the whole afternoon what you were having for dinner.
- When a simple matchbox car or a Barbie doll represented a whole week's worth of entertainment.
- When you actually had an imagination.
- When magic really existed. - When 'Jaws' didn't look fake.

I want to think ...
- That the world is fair.
- That everyone is honest and good would always triumph over evil.
- When a member of the of the opposite sex was just some annoying disturbance.
- When friends were real and you didn't care if they were black, white, Catholic, Asian, African, Muslim, fat, skinny, pink, green or from a whole other planet, it just didn't matter... until others told you differently!

I want to believe that anything is possible. All you have to do is to Dream.

I want it to be unknown to me of the complexities of life and to be completely ecstatic by the little things again like the sound of the Mr. Whippy Van!

I DON'T want to know of any school, homework, clothes, friendship, relationships, popularity or even gossip!

I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams and human kind.

I want to believe that all adults must know everything (How wrong we were).

So here's my money, my Visa-ATM cards, my responsibilities, my projects(esp), my makeup, and my adolescence.

I'm really feeling very stressed, extremely tired.........



I've tried...



I really did....




But??



Once again, I'm disappointed.







I'm too tired to carry on like this.............








Maybe from the start, it's all my fault.. It's me who caused all problems....

Do anyone ever care?

Do anyone ever care how I feel?

I'm freaking upset about the project, about school, about everything else. Why? Why am I forever stuck here.

Deadlines are due soon. Real soon. 2 weeks. Damnit.

What am I supposed to do? This time round, I've no solutions at all. Project is still stuck. People giving me problems. I don't understand, is it really that difficult for her to open her mouth and ask questions? Look it this way, it's her fault and yet? We've been blamed for it. For goodness sake, we didn't do anything to wreck her life. It's her responsibility to take part in the project, and yet? She didn't contribute and still want to create problems for the group? Did she ever stand in our shoes and think? We are trying our best to help her and yet she refused all our help, and even framed me for things I didn't do.
For once, I emailed her my project codings, and ask her to spend some time reading it. If she got any doubts, ask me when the holiday break is over. I waited for 1 month and da dah!! She told my group mate that "she did spend some time reading the codes and she has some questions. But even she has any questions, she won't ask me. Cuz' she knows that I will defintely scold her!"

Ha! Isn't it her responsbilities to do the CODINGS as well? She didn't contribute and yet dare to say so much?


Crapz.

2nd Day.. towards da doom..

...It's the 2nd day of school.......

Kuan drove me and TTL to school again! Heh! No need to squeeze the damn bus.. Somehow we just managed to be late for the Computer Networking lab. *oops* The lab is really crowded! Having 31 students in 1 class!!!! Gosh.

Lunch at mensa before LS lesson. . . .

Anyway, I've counted and realized i'm only left with 1 week odd to finish up the project. .... Help ! somebody?

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Went touring after lessons. Apple drove kuan's car and brought us to Sun Plaza for dinner. Then we decided to go Changi for some sting ray. Its back to Pasir Ris again. All stalls selling stingrays are closed! Oh damn it. So we sent Apple back home again. The next destination was my house! ...

Fwah! Spent hours in the car.! Almost fell asleep on the way back, but was "scared-ed" until I was wide awake. Met a little accident on the road. . . Fwah..


Gonna sleep.... there's class on tomorrow. Good nites.

Not-so-great-News...

Tired is the only word I could think of now. And guess what? The new semester is starting just in another few hours time!

I will be having my first lesson (APEL) at 9am. Somehow I could picture how will I behave in the class later. (traaa draaaa dummm.. s.l.e.e.p.i.n.g.. that's a secret, don't tell anyone ya!).

Anyway, just wanted to share a piece of news here. I've just received the email from the SplashAward Wireless Jam 2005 committee. The email is sent only to teams that are qualified for the 2nd round of competition. In another word, my team has been selected!

The results of those qualified teams will only be published on the website after all responses from the qualified teams are received. We're supposed to reply the committee regarding whether are we still interested to continue with the 2nd round of competition by 9th December 2004.

I was so scared to disappoint myself as well as my supervisor for this competition. I've no idea how many groups got into this 2nd round of competition, but well, my group made it! Extremely thrilled about it. I'm glad enough to know that we managed to get into the 2nd round..

I shall tell this piece of not-considered-so-great news to my supervisor tomorrow! Yipee!

Good Night~

7 deadly sins...

You scored as Pride. Pride 81% Sloth 69% Gluttony 69% Envy 50% Lust 50% Greed 50% Wrath 25% Seven deadly sins created with QuizFarm.com

Still On The Project..

Yes.. Like what I have wrote on the title. I am still stuck with the project. With 8255 chip.

Received the chip on Nov 02.. It's already Nov 19. And Yet? Nothing has been accomplished. . .

I can't help but to feel the stress again. I am trying to get myself out from being unbalanced, but somehow, my group mate got me influenced with his unbalanced feeling too.


Semester 2 will be starting soon. In another 2 weeks or so. How am I going to finish this in such a short time. We can't even get the 7 LEDs that were plugged towards the 8255 chip, to light up. What more can we do? A week break will be given to the group before Semester 2 start. I guess both of us strongly needs some time to recharge as well as to relax ourselves. Batteries are running low already. It must be recharged otherwise. . . . . .



Frustration. I guessed even my "lao dou" also felt that. Showed some pissed off attitude today. Indescribable feeling.


Blame it on me for being so incapable. I'm stupid, I'm dumb. Sorry people. But definitely I will still be continuing working hard on it. I am merely a hardworking student... There are nothing much that I could do other than working hard now..



Time to sleep.. Don't know when will be the next time I will blog. Has been long since I last blogged. Lots of problems. Lots of unhappiness. Lots of stress. It's really tearing me apart, aching every part of my muscles................

BoO WoO

Strain my back muscles a little yesterday. I went over to the hospital during lunch upon seeing my sis's SMS message. She was discharged and she wanted to bring the baby home too.

So there goes my lunch. I rushed there in a cab. (Hell, I've been overspending this week. Noo0). Then waited for 2 hours for the baby to be discharged. Need to go through some tests for the baby.

I was told by the doctor not to strain myself by carrying heavy stuffs, but I did...... Argghh. But anyway, she's my sis. No matter what I still have to help her through. I took charge of carrying all her stuffs. And man, that's really heavy.

Spent quite some time before returning school at 4 pm. LOL.


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Anyway, project isn't going on very smoothly. I don't know why, but I just can't concentrate to think. Gonna put in more efforts. It's my future, my life and also it might make an impact on somebody else lives. It's Something that I am held responsible with.



Gambare...


kei =,= v

Damn services

I'm enraged. I'm annoyed. I'm displeased. YES. So what's it all about?

It's the services that government hospitals provide. My sister was admitted to KKH for her delivery. And yes, I did try to forgive the doctor for what happened during delivery. The absurd doctor simply didn't gave my sister attention! He kept insisting that she will not give birth for the next 6 hours, and so he didn't perform his responsibilities to do checkups. My sister kept telling him regarding it. He just refused to do anything, not even giving her the attention. The doctor was just standing at the doorway, telling her that the baby will not arrive so soon. Then HE WALKED away.

That was at 8pm. Guess what? The baby arrived at around 9pm.

The nurses are the ones who helped her about the delivery, other than 2 other baby doctors. According to my sis, the doctors are only in charge of the baby. So? Where's the quality services that doctors should have?

Ok, I forgave that since everything is over.

BUT?

As joejoe is a premature baby, he has to stay at the Special Care Nursery (SCN). So my sis has to shuffle between her ward at level 3 and the SCN ward at level 2.

The Special Care Nursery is known to provide step-down care for babies discharged from the NICU. It also takes care of newborn babies, including low birth weight babies, requiring close monitoring and observation with some medical intervention.

Definitely, it costs much more. But cost isn't the problem here.

It's the services! My mom gave me a call this morning to notify me about joejoe's problem. I feared. I felt so terrible upon hearing the news. The baby was having some difficulties in breathing earlier in the morning, and thus suffering from "lack of oxygen". Gosh. The news is definitely alarming.

I went visiting my sis and joejoe during lunch break, and brought some food for my sis. AND, I managed to sneak into the SCN to visit joejoe. Of course, I did wash my hands thoroughly. Only parents or grandparents are allowed in the unit. HAH! I managed to even stay there for more than 10 minutes. So, this tells me what about the nurses on shift? There wasn't any nurse taking care the cubicle of babies. There were at least 8 babies there.

Next?

One of the babies almost cried out his lungs but no attention was given to him. Another baby who was beside joejoe, was having some problems, and the machine was beeping; given signals to the nurses. It was supposed to indicate the low oxygen intake or heartbeat rate if I'm not wrong. And again, no nurse came forward.

I only managed to see an INDIAN nurse when the baby's parents arrive. Why did she appear? I reckon its because she saw the parents walking in at the other end of the unit. She pretended to show concern to the baby. Please! After 10 minutes of the beeping? Is this what the SCN should do? And if it is, why have such units?

I could use that 10 minutes to smuggle the babies out. I doubt they will notice. They can't even notice me walking into the unit.

What are the nurses doing in the unit? THEY ARE ALL GOSSIPING. Are we paying for such services? They seriously didn't perform good jobs.

I almost went over to give the baby a pat, to at least console him. It kind of broke my heart when I saw the baby crying for so long. The cry was so heart-fending. I tried controlling my tears. I was on the verge to cry. I am both annoyed and disappointed in such services.

My sis then told me about the incident. I'm agitated. "Hey this is a baby, a life. Is that to treat them? And if something gonna happen to the babies, can they pay us back with our very own babies?" No, they can't. It's only showing me how sick is the hospital. And the most honorable info is that KKH is a well known hospital for women and children. Hah. Did they perform a satisfying job?

The nurse only said that joejoe must have drank too much milk, that's why causing the problem. But first, how did they ever feed the babies? Did they help to clean up the babies right after drinking the milk?

And if the nurses are giving the babies more attention, nothing of the problems will happen. They are merely shifting the blames to the babies. Saying that it's the babies having problems.

Once again, I want to emphasize on the SCN unit. WHAT IS SCN?

This is the first time I'm carrying joejoe in my arms. A new born baby. He is so small, so vulnerable on my arms. I saw him doing some cute actions (like making faces). Awesome. He has got my full attention upon seeing him for the first time on Sunday night.

Tears rolled down my cheeks when I left. I didn't want them to affect my sis. My sis is still in hospital due to her HBP.

Seriously, I demand an explanation from the hospital.

P/s: It's just what I felt after the visit. Be it you believe it or not. Just wanted to write it down. Maybe suggestions for improving? Freak

Here I am. The Little Suave JoeJoe!

Hey Peeps! I'm LiL Joe Joe! I'm born in KK Hospital~

I came to this world on Oct 30 cuz I was too anxious to celebrate Halloween 2004!

See what a cute and suave boy I'm!

Doctor Doctor.. I'm in PAIN!

"OUCH!!!"... That was what I felt this morning when I tried sitting down. Darn.

My back is very swollen, and yes, it is around the lower spine. Scare the shit out of me. TTL and Jaslyn accompanied me to the polyclinic to see the doctor in the afternoon, cuz' they can't stand me ouching every move I take. Lucky me, the doctor only said that I've injured my back's ligament. She told me not try not to strain my back or carry heavy things now, otherwise.... *hell*

She prescribed me with some gel to apply for my back as well as the medicine. I am supposed to take the medicine whenever the pain is unbearable. Hopefully I will recover soon. ... ...... Bless Me!!

Pain sia.. Can't stand it already. I shall stop using the laptop.

Most probably, I will update the blog again in school tomorrow. =P